Journal Entry: Tue Oct 18, 2011, 8:23 AM
Listening to: my mom's voice ehoing in my head
Watching: my mom's health deteriorate
Playing: lost interest
Eating: no appetite
fellow deviants and anyone who reads this,
i'm calling out to all with a kind heart. please help my mom. she has aneurysm, bleed in her brain, we're running out of funds, she's scheduled for angiogram tomorrow to find the exact blood vessel that popped. hospital bills are high, she has to be moved to another facility which supports both angiography and the surgery, but acquiring a room in the icu is expensive, and we have no idea how much the surgery will cost. i don't want to ask for donations but i'm desperate. please if you can,any amount will be appreciated. please help us.
please donations via paypal: firstname.lastname@example.org
update Oct 20 2011:
waiting for angio results. thank you so much to everyone who donated, really a big help, sorry could not thank you one by one, ton of chores left behind especially laundry, pains in my left part of head been acting up, my mom's more worried about me. again thank you so much.
update Oct 21 2011:
just got home. no sleep. talked to the neurosurgeon, the coiling procedure is so expensive, you gotta have a budget of 1M Philippine pesos which is equivalent to around 20,000 - 25,000 usd (i think), all in all, included all the bills,etc. coiling is less invasive and offers a bigger success rate. whilst the clipping procedure has an estimated cost of 500,000 Philippine pesos, all in all, included all the bills,etc. half of what coiling costs. but has greater risk and it is invasive.
we can't afford coiling, we have no choice.
problem is we only have about 200,000 Philippine pesos, your donations included. can't make anymore loans because we have a couple of still not completely paid loans. a week before my mom's aneurysm, my grandma died, we made a huge loan to cover the funeral costs, we didn't expect this to happen.
time is running, the surgeon said delaying it more will have even more complications.
i stayed with my mom all night, we talked a bit. she cried, said she should have just died so that we wouldn't be in this predicament. she wanted us to save up so that i can afford to buy a bike. i cried. i told her i don't need that stupid bike. there are a lot of people praying for your recovery. money is nothing, its not worth having if i can't use it to save you.
i know this is asking too much, but we still need more help. i can do work, but time is not a luxury we have.
again thank you everyone for all your donations.
update Oct 31 2011:
just got home from the hospital, my mother managed to pass the operation yesterday, she was returned to the ICU around 3:00 A.M.
There were complications, her vein that was supplying blood to her brain ruptured, doctor said it was weak, thus causing her to stroke. she's awake now but heavily sedated to avoid reopening the wounds. she has ulcer according to the doctor. even though heavily sedated, my mom still manages to respond to my voice. tears keep flowing down her eyes, i could only guess what's going in her mind is she's wondering, why can't i move my let hand and leg, i'm supposed to get better not worse. i know how she thinks.
whenever they suck the phlegm for her throat, my mom struggles in pain, tears just flow down her eyes, i could only imagine her pain, but seeing her like that is more painful. the only thing i could do is comfort her, hold her hand.
my brother and I went home to get some fresh clothes for my dad and for ourselves as well, but we will be returning after this. we were tired and sleepy after no sleep the past days, but seeing how our mom needs us there, we can't afford to rest.
still our main problem are the bills after all this is through, we still need a lot, but we'll manage. to everyone who helped and gave their support and prayers, i thank you from the bottom of my heart. helping out a total stranger in need, you are more than friends to me.
before the operation, i told my mom that so many were helping her and that she shouldn't lose hope. not only did you all help in our financial struggle, but helped to uplift my mom, knowing that there are a lot of caring people out there who want her to get well.
again, i can't say thank you enough.
UPDATE NOV 2 2011:
My mom is dying. she had a heart attack after being brought back from surgery. now unconscious and unresponsive. face is all swollen up.
i was against the surgery from the beginning. this turned from bad to worse.
doctors told us to just pray. that means they can't do anything, that there's zero percent chance. there's puss flowing out of my mom's nose, the nurses didn't even report it to the doctor, i had to consult my doctor about it, he told me to tell the doctor to get samples of that puss for examining.
they are just waiting there for her to die. they are not doing anything and everything.
we also noticed there's special treatment on the other icu patients. v.luna afpmc sucks!